cinta dy !

1st , aq mmg bodo , knp aq ta dpt na ckp at dy , yg aq na dy dtg jmpa aq .
actlly aq malu dgn dy , yg aq nie lemh sanad . aq dha ta nsem , aq dha mcm penagih jea
malu kowt aq na jmpa dy , dy lg malu bila jmpa aq . aq yg cm gnie . aq dha ta sehat . aq dha lemah .
bodohnya aq ! aq sakit an aty dy ! aq na dy bnci sanad aq ! bodoh an aq . aq dha luka an aty dy . aq dha buat dy terguris . dha tada maaf bg mu lha arie ! . an sng if kau ckp yg kau na dy dtg jmpa kau ! knp aq ta bleh ckp . mybe aq malu dgn dri aq skunx . msti dy takan terima aq . if dy thu keadaan aq skunx . dy msti malu r . aq sndri un malu . mcmc2 alsn aq kasi . aq buat dy sakit aty . tp dlm aq sakit an aty dy . aq nnges , aq meratapi album yg pnuh dgn smua pic dy . smua tntg dy aq smpan dlm aty . dlm albun un aq smpan . aq hargai dy . tp bila jd cm gnie .. aq malu . aq malu sanad . td lepas kitorg break , n i dha berjaya buat dy sakit aty n bnci an i ... aq gembra , gmbra dlm tngisn . aq fkir tntg dy . aq fkir sanad tntg dy . aq na pjuk na cter apa yg aq ingn an mmg dha tada pluang ! seyez aq ckp tngisn aq ta berhenti ! aq bertindk bodoh tnpa berbincg dgn dy ! babi sial r ! ....................... seyez ! aq rindu dy . aq oweys tgok jam . time dy keje .. time dy  blik . if morning dy blik kejea msty call aq . aq windu dy . tiada sapa dpt gnti an dy . biar lhaa , if dy ta bca un note nie or bca kea . apa boleh aq buat . aq hnya bleh tgok pic dy . tido bsma aq , mkn brsma aq . evrything aq dgn pic dy . ! aq rindu gila sama dy . . seyez aq mnyesal . ! aq dha ta bleh na buat apa dha . aq ta bleh pjuk dy . ta bleh trg an situasi . smua dha ta bleh .... na jd mmber lg lha dha ta bleh . aq hnya na pesn jea jgn jd mcm aq . apa yg aq buat at dy . menyesl au .! aq syg gilea2 at dy . time dy maki2 aq , maraa2 aq . aq dym jea . aq hnya mmpu mnitik an air mata . aq hnya terfkir . algkh dy thu if aq nie mcm mna skunx . n algkh dy thu apa yg aq buat at dy smua nya utk demi kebaikn dy . ! aq sanad bodoh r . bodoooooooooooo

... apa yg ku harap an takan jd knyataan lg . mmg aq silap besr an . aq ta trus trg apa yg blaku . shit ! aq hnya mmpu mmbca apa yg dy maki at aq . itu jea aq mmpu . aq  tadapat na apprve dri aq . na p'tahan an apa yg sdg aq alami .. aq syg dy . aq takan pnh lupa an dy . walau sesaat skli un . aq rindu dya . aq na dy , aq na dy sanad . aq na ckp dgn dy . yg aq na dy dtg jmpa aq . maaf an b syg ! b ta terus trg dgn keadaan yg sbnrnya , b malu . b rasa , biar r b buat syg cm gnie , biar r syg bnci b . b ta kesh . sbb if syg thu keadaan b skkunx psti syg juga akn tggl an b . mcm sys tggl an b skunx . parent angkt un tggl an b . sedih sanad . before syg tggl an b . better b buat syg bnci an b . . to jea b fkir . now aq terima , aq yg buat smuanya cm gnie .

time aq at bank , time na b'tolak kea jb . aq dha rasa an somthing . aq dyam jea . time dha stle at bank aq un drive na gerak jb . tetiba ada xcdnt . seyez ! aq rasa ta daya bila tgok xcdnt ngeri tu . aq tgok drh . aq trbyg drh aq time operation . mmg fobia . so aq  pulg umh . tgok umh dha kosong , bru aq thu . dyorg tggl an aq ! . see , sys sndri un bleh tggl an aq mcm tu . sdg an gf aq . aq smkin smkin na buat dye bnci aq ....lastly dy bnci aq . so cm gnie lha jd nya
tp aq rndu saat aq nyanyi at dy : sdap or ta aq un ta thu .  aq nynyi lgu aishiteru at dy . 1st time beb ! aq nynyi at dye . best gila . happy .
ps : b still syg an syg . sorry for evrything syg ! . iloveyoudamnmuch .

missing love

I love you wholeheartedly, I never lie to say that I love you so. you, I am happy to get to quoting with you. I love you dead. you could again do not you get me, before I go for good. you, you never know what I'm doing it all for you. you, I soon my pace of my business here, because I tired of living like this. So I need protection for shelter when the rain, for you I am willing to defend everything, I never expect anything in return. you, if you love me, you should accept for me to go back, I miss you so much, I need my life. I not want you weak, I want you enthusiasm, confident that's all. I want you to know. today my tears flow again because you are jealous of your member, why we must follow her, while I do not want to trouble you, let my self go through all that, I have a guardian i, sis never be aware of my feelings. they want my property, over the years, I only watch them on their own interests.sys garang, just suddenly appeared, because I knew that he was new at living no money to him since she was pregnant, I do not care about her daddy again. now I just want a place he relies any money, now blocked my expenses, so I want to topup I have no money, but I wait, I wait for you. So I manage it all. I want to live with you, I want to cry with you. you know that I love you so. Because you I learned to face everything. all the trials and challenges I did it all for you. I never hated you. but I too love you ...... you are willing to accept I do??

its over n i terima dgn aty yg terbuka .

ptg yg agak dingin ,
jalan yg d'bshi dgn air hujan , daun2 b'trbngan
tatkala aq b'dri d'tepi jndela , smbil b'lingn air mata .

aq minta maaf at smua yg mngnli aq, thanks be my mmber
espclly my love n my ex . d'ksmptn nie i ingin m'gucap an selamat hari raya
hope u all b'tmbh ceria n succes . new year bakal tiba . hope u all happy with ur life .
sorry s'pnjg pgnalan kita , i ta serius un , cause takot akn hilng u all , sejak i thu i sket . perasaan tu tlah m'mberi an i stu tekann . today i lost her , lost her .

ini stry aq dgn gf aq yg t'kni :
syg , b minta maaf , atas smua yg b laku an , td b tnya syg , syg jwb b mmber jeea . mmg t'rasa lha . tp slh b juga , buat syg hilng k'pcyaan t'hadp b .. td syg text slgi b ta post syg tana cntct b , nthen syg off phone . wow ! mcm to skali lynn dy at i , aq dyam ,, bila i fkir blik , slama ta cntct mcm2 bleh berlaku , lg2 bila rmai yg mint dy , dy sndri ta nmpk mana cntiknya dy , pfct nya dy , dy ta nmpk , i as her bf , i know that , i know where is your spcial dear . td buka fb dy , mntap pic dy , air mata aq makin laju mnglir , mcm empngn bocor , aq tarik nafas n say , mybe dy p'lu an yg lbh bgus , i sdr i mmg ta bgus , i seorg yg pnipu n i suka mungkir jnji .
sbb apa i laku an smua to , cause i tana dy tggl an i , so aq un senyap2 tnpa beri thu dy apa yg aq ingin laku an utk dy , mlm td aqq stry apa yg aq buat , time to mmg aq tgh menanggung ksakitan , aq cter at dy apa yg aq laku an utk dy , smbil aq m'nges , sdh , tkot ta b'ksmpatan , cause dy ta pcya aq , sbb tu aq na bukti an yg aq na buat yg terbaik utk dy , tp td air mata aq jatoh lg , tatkala dy hnya aggp aq mmber , even i terasa aty dgn dy , i maaf an smuanya , n i b'terima kasih sbb dy sebahagian dri idup i , dy segala2nya , dy nyawa  i . syg , syg ta pyh off phone . cause b na pth an sim , so syg ta pyh off , nnty mmber2 na cntct ... i trima smuanya . hnya dy yg t'akhir , now aq k'seorgn , m'nti saat2 t'akhir , mmpukah aq luka an aty dy , aq hnya ada beberapa lg jea jgka hyt aq , even aq ta thu bila tp mcm ta lama jea. cause aq dha hilng nyawa aq , kini aq s;prti owg yg hilg arh tju , aq ta mkn , aq ta lalu na mkn , cause aq fkir an dy , selama aq tada nie , adkh dy akn jd sprti dlu , aq tkot dy sbgtu , but i hope she never do again . aq syg dy , slama nie aq stia dgn dy , aq na hbes an sisa hdup aq dgn dy , tp hajat aq ta ksmpaian , cause dy buang aq begitu , smpai dy off phone , aq dha ta b'pluang na b'sma dy , 1st aq dgr dy nnges , ay aq tersntuh , n aq try gembira an dy , tp dlm aty aq sdh , sbb aq yg buat dy begitu , dy sket aty dgn aq , aq slalu buat bnda yg dy ta suka ... sbb aq marah dri aq sndri , aq buat dy mcm tu ,,, aq syg dy , this last aq on9 fb , lepas nie aq takan on9 dha .. sbb aq na tgok dy happy , sggpkah aq tgok dy happy sdg an aq mndrita ... tp demi kbhagiaan dy aq pg . aq pg , aq na dy happy bukn dgn aq , aq hdup hnya utk owg yg b'nama " SITI SALWA " hnya dy yg t'akhir , mcm mna aq na post brg at dy , if dy sndri mngharap an brg dri aq sdg an dy seronok dgn owg lain . luka nya aty aq  nie , dy off phone , apa aq na buat , melain an aq dgn rela aty , tggl an dy , even syg sanad , aq t'pksa demi kbhagiaan dy .
syg , b na syg thu yg b syg an syg n syg cinta terakhir b ,

iloveyou syg . hope syg akn jmpa yg terbaik , jga dri , bubye , thanks for evrything .

p/s : aq na lari rumh , aq ta suka hdup cm gni , even tarikh tu bakal hmpir , what i cre , aq dha tada hrpn na hdup , demi dy aq b'korban .... 

thanks syg .

i hurt she again

smlm yg k'lima aq jnji dgn dy , yg aq na jmpa dy , tp aq ta pg , cause aq takut k'hlngn dy if aq mgkir jnji , aq syg dy , dy nyawa aq , dri mlm smpai pagi , aq try pjuk dy n t'pksa jelas an "that situation " . aq laku an smua dmi dy , aq na dy b'sma aq , ada tmpt tggl n p'lndungan yg selesa . dha stle smuanya bru aq na ambil dy n stay with me , 
now !!!
she never trust me ! what i want to do ! . i'm a looser ! 
- dy buat status at fb single 
aq kecewa , mybe sikap aq yg buat dy ta p'cya , smkin ta p'cya at aq
bodohnya aq rasa an .
- dy suruh aq post present at dy .
mmg aq akn buat . even aq ta thu but aq try . 
p/s : bru dpt text dri dy , if dha post bru syg buat relation . hmmmmm . ( ta thu kea aq nie jealous , sbb dy cmeyl , rmai owg suka dy , du ta nmpk ke yg dy to p'fct d'mta owg . )
demi dy , aq sggup buat even sukar aq na buat cause aq tada $%#*^!~+ sush sanad . aq nie bagai an pendatang . pendatg yg dtg tnpa d'undng . hmmmm
but i try . i try n i try for her .

Marc Anthony My baby you